19 September 2014

[I wrote this in response to part of my friend's reflection, and I feel like it's a good addition to my blog]

"All I know is that my class is full of overworking sleep deprived sophomores. It’s society’s “chains” that are adding all this additional pressure on us. The moment we were born and welcomed into society. All these artificial needs that are beyond basic survival ones are instilled upon us, such as the need to wear better clothes, program better technology and eat more exotic food. I acknowledge the fact that need promotes innovation but on the other side of it, it’s all these tirelessly working people who honestly don’t care. So many students are coming to school just for the sake of coming to school, nobody really loves coming to school and only a select few enjoy learning. The biggest goal within our students here is to go to university. Everything is for college apps; sports, clubs, leadership and extra-curriculars. It is so infrequent when I see someone doing something simply because they are truly passionate about these days. But if it is passionate, it’s probably not great for college apps. In the end, we are fifteen and sixteen year olds who just want to have fun. Yet, we have to juggle rigorous academics, dramatic social life, and other aspects such as family, health…" (Shuge Luo)

For reals though. When you go to school every day knowing you cant fail because if you do, you will likely fail life/your parents will kill you and make your life terrible anyway, it really just sucks the life out of you. I'm so frustrated; even though I studied for my math test that was today, I couldn't finish because I'm slow. I'd like to think its not because I'm stupidly horrible at math, because even though I'm not great, I can get it if I try. I was literally like breezing through the test, and at the word problems, the teacher was all like, "lol guys only 5 minutes left". I saw so many people who finished, and I just wonder why I can't even though I know I do understand the material. Do you know how frustrating it is when you get 7/10 questions right with the 7 problems you did COMPLETELY correct (with the others unfinished because of time), and some other guy in your class finishes all 10 problems but gets something wrong in each one, yet they get a higher score than you? Like are you testing for true knowledge or just how many problems I can bullshit in 50 minutes? I am literally through the roof with math okay. I study: I know it but I'm slow as hell. I don't study: I just fail because I didn't study. And I know every person ever is going to be all like, "WELL. If you KNEW the material, you would be able to finish on time". I can definitely see the validity in that statement, but I feel like it's sort of narrow minded to say that. Some people have slower processing speed; are you going to fail me just because I can't solve a quadratic as fast as "normal" people can, even though my end result is just as good? Sure, I guess you could say that their math is "better" than mine, it probably is, but I don't think I deserve a 60-70 just because I couldn't finish, especially if I had shown that I did know what I was doing with what I did finish.

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