The Blog of Elaine Wang

25 August 2017 Once again, I am here, confused. Yesterday night I was feeling pretty down as with all my days here and was messaging Aditi about it. Basically spilled all my tragic feelings to her. Then when I go shower and come back I see messages in our group chat which is chill. And then just now (next day) I checked twitter...

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25 August 2017 Decided to reach out to Pallavi just now after debating for a while. I'm so bad at these things. It seems to have gone well so far, but I'm not really sure how it'll play out. I think we'll be meeting for an event tomorrow, hopefully I leave an okay impression and this situation doesn't turn out to be Swetha...

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25 August 2017 I never really noticed how much I hate being alone. Not alone per say, but just that feeling of knowing that, even if you wanted to, you wouldn't have anyone to hang out with. Today we had the new student convocation, and yesterday night I asked Swetha about it and she said we should go together because she didn't want...

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23 August 2017 It's really true when they say you don't know what you have until you lose it. I feel so lonely right now. Even as I told myself just yesterday that I was glad I'm leaving, that was the me who was still sitting in the comfort of my home of 18 years. I'm sitting alone crying in this unfamiliar room...

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17 August 2017 I've been hanging out with Liz and Olivia a lot this week and it's made me pretty happy. I had thought Olivia was annoyed with me but that's probably because I didn't take the initiative to have conversations with her so it felt like I wasn't really interacting with her at all. So basically it's just my imagination as usual...

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10 August 2017 Sometimes I feel like I'm such an unhelpful person. Like when Olivia chats me about stuff and I feel like I should be helpful and supportive I'm always super stumped on what to say. And now I'm randomly afraid she dislikes me because I'm so useless at making helpful and interesting conversation. I don't know, I'm always scared of saying...

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8 August 2017 Yeah so I'm inexplicably sad again at 2 AM. You know, the usual. I just realized that my previous post was literally about this exact same thing haha. The post was even made at 3 AM, an hour later but pretty much the same idea and even about the same person, though I can't remember why anymore since the post...

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